‘Felt like my heart was torn out of my chest when Ben call off the engagement’- JLo

In Jennifer Lopez’s memoir she revealed the experienced of her first real heartbreak was when Ben Affleck called off their public engagement in January, 2004.
She confessed in her first memoir, True Love, 

‘It felt like my heart had been torn out of my chest,’ 

Two months after dumping her, he married Jennifer Garner ...She was at rock bottom for three days, when Marc Anthony walked back into her life. 

On Marc she confesses she dated him because she was heart-broken..

she writes 

‘He was warm and funny, a brilliant singer and artist who knew how to make me feel special’, ‘He was so sure of everything, and at this moment , when I felt so lost, so broken and alone, there he was’ The reality was I didn’t want to be alone’, 

There wasn’t that same passion she had with other men but she thought she could ‘build something real with him, something that would last’.

The first time she met Marc in 1998 backstage while he was performing on Broadway, his first words to her were... 

 

‘One day you’re going to be my wife’ – a good come-on.

 

Now she was back on target and back under the dome -- for that fairy tale life she was chasing. Marc saved her from her immediate painful emotional depths and in return, Lopez believed she could love him forever.

‘Things between Marc and me weren’t perfect – our marriage was never the kind to glide along peacefully’. From the beginning, it was tumultuous, passionate, and explosive’… 

Seven years later, in 2011, both knew the marriage was over.

‘My own happiness and sense of self-worth depended on how happy he was. So when Marc stated so clearly that he wasn’t happy, it broke me down completely’. 

Back to ‘dying inside, feeling lonely and miserable and sad', she thought she might never be happy again.

 

 

Culled from True Love....